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I’m writing this from a weird place. It’s really me in need of encouragement, wanting to remember all the reasons I can trust God. Recently, I can cite quite a few moments. Earliest recent moment would be me moving. I visited my home state last November, and perhaps I was in a place of weakness, but I longed to be back in it during and after that visit. I seriously looked into moving while I was there, and so I prayed to God about it. When I looked up from my prayer, a fire rainbow lit up the sky. Fire rainbows are my most favorite thing, and the biggest way God has chosen to speak to me over the years. It was an absolute yes. Immediately I drew up a plan to come back to my home state. I figured out budgets, how much money I would need, how often I would need to work, how I would get my stuff there, where and who I would live with, etc. It was an anxious time. I knew I wanted, needed (?) to get out of where I was and go back home, but I didn’t know how it was going to all pull together. I prayed during this time, and suffered multiple severe panic episodes. I had been recovering from Guillain Barre’ Syndrome, and I couldn’t quite handle the sort of “PTSD” that came about as I was recovering. So being told “yes” by Goddie (God) about going home made me so happy. It gave me something to look forward to. I knew I wanted to go home, but it really was a big decision to go there, and anxiety wasn’t leaving so easily as I tried to leave. As I got closer to May, when I had chosen to move, things started coming together, minus a budget mishap. I had most of the money I needed, I signed a lease with my brother and his girlfriend, and my other brother decided to drive my things to my home state. I had needed quite a few things, since I left all my furniture behind, and God provided tenfold. I was given a desk, two dressers, a futon, a bookshelf, nightstands, dishes, a couch, anything and everything I could need was provided for me when I got here. I was shocked to see my family as well as my brother’s girlfriend’s family all pour together to make our chosen place a home. Art work, towels, cleaning supplies, just everything we’d need. God showed up. And as I set up my room, the first room I’ve had to myself in six years, I probably cried. I am still just so excited to be able to walk in here and see a new bed, all the furniture, and so many testimonies of God’s faithfulness hanging on the wall and all around my room. Pictures hang on my walls that have dotted my walk with Chrsit and helped me become who I am today. A poster from my old youth leader, a painting from a dear mission-minded friend, just so many things that I can look at it and find that I’m not alone. All of these people who have poured into my life I am so extremely grateful for. I am happy to be here. I’m excited to have this new chapter of life. Admittedly, it gets lonely. I moved here with no friends to call on, unless I wanted to reforge old connections. But I’ve met great people, and I’m enjoying my family’s close proximity. Now, today I needed the reminder that God is faithful to me. In June, I nearly missed my flight by less than five minutes. Security had my bag and there was nothing I could but stand and watch. I swear years fell off of my life, haha! But, He saved me. I was able to make my flight with a moment to spare. In July, I was struggling with working enough, and He called me into a second job and gave me a perfect schedule between both jobs. I’m currently trying to hear Him now, as the reminder as a old yet very dear promise He made to me has risen up in my life. I just need to look at all these things- to see His faithfulness and be reminded that I can trust Him. God always provides for me. He’s made this promise to me, and so He will keep it. Thanks for reading!
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Melody C.God has given me the natural talent as a writer. I felt Him encourage me in the direction of using my natural skill in writing for Him, instead of investing in skills that were basically going to waste. I have been writing my whole life. I love to answer questions, give advice, and share experiences. I hope you enjoy it, and I pray that God speaks through me and to you. If there are ever any typos, please ignore them. They will be fixed as soon as I notice them. Archives
February 2019
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